It’s hard to stay strong, or strongish . Or believe that I can write .

Just a ‘ not suitable for this journal , we’ve had a lot of submissions ‘ , and I forget the ones that I have had published . I also forget why I’m writing, especially poetry.

The old competitive streak re-emerges: I have to put a No against the table I have , listing what/ date submitted/ result !!

It’s such a balancing act . To take in the feedback but not let it annihilate my voice . Or obliterate urge to write . And here I thank SPM for their feedback .

It’s their feedback which will keep me at it . Keep me writing , I know all the factors working against my success : age, motivation, academia ( ha yes,) There are more but not really relevant .

I’m still becoming confident with my found voice . I’m getting better with the structure and presentation . Still struggling with technology of submission and confidence . But I’ll get there.