Spaces in my Head :to Mataelpino and beyond and not “Preciosa” today

No its not preciosa,or outstandingly beautiful today .I am always suspicious of the word anyway as it usually means not just outstanding beauty ,but difficult walking through isolated terrain ,contradictory or non existent flechas (arrows ) and  usually inclement weather.But thats me just wanting a challenge and then moaning about it .

Walking to Mataelpino 

Second day on the Madrid :from Colemar to Mataelpino.Rain ,snow ,hurtling winds from those mountains .Was glad of all my thermals ,rain pants and gloves .At times  hard gusts of wind and sleet against my  face so that I couldn’t move a muscle.Fingers numb but body warm enough .Had to focus on each step ,looking out for arrows that are easy to miss in this weather ,so no time for anxieties or indecisiveness .All that matters is keeping to the path and reaching a destination Thankful for my daughter Nardwyn’s company ,she remained cheerful as we sheltered every now and then behind the rocks that jutted out  along the side of the winding path. Reached Mataelpino very early after 9 km .We had to stay there as it was another 18 km to the next stop ,and the weather was increasingly wild .Ha -the hostel was locked and the man we phoned said he’d be a couple of hours .So we dragged frozen legs up another hill and around a corner and found the bar .

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Nardwyn thinking in the warm bar in Mataelpino .Wheres her book ?

Books or not ?

This  series of posts though is not just an account of each step of our walk and my winges ,or a reflection on the nuances of the Spanish language This entry is about what walking  does for me : walking clears my head so that I have space to reflect ,and to dream.There are no pressing engagements  and obligations ,phone calls and texts pinging ,jobs to start ,places to reach ,routines,people to respond to .Now there is not even a book .

On the second day of this walk I ditched my only book because it was too heavy ,and Nardwyn did the same .I have to admit we regretted it later when we reached Mataelpino early in the day ,and had to stay in bed wrapped in blankets or in the bar in the smoke for the rest of the day .Another constraint  about walking is the amount of liquor that can be consumed ,especially in the middle of the  day .It was siesta  time and  we were the sole occupiers of the bar.We could read the local Spanish paper ( in this case full of futbal),converse with each other -and eventually  there was no alternative but to sit with our own thoughts .In my case there was sometimes an overwhelming  blankness ,sometimes a sadness ,occasionally  thoughts that I had told myself I had  left far behind.Often a questioning of what my life is about ,what I’m about ,regrets about people ,and lack of loving ,the ontological insecurities of everyday life .Books can block or deflect this stream of consciousness .

When  I’m walking again the next day the spaces in my head are wider, a lot of the extraneous stuff cleared out .So  there is freedom to be joyful and celebrate being alive and part of this beautiful world

Food 

How important is it to eat when its 3 degrees outside and snowing and still 2 km to the nearest food place (bar) ,but its Sunday and the towns are small and there is not much choice .Bang goes my  vegetarian,organic diet .Will eat whatever presents ,maybe not red meat ,but anything else

At hostal at Cercedilla ,further along from Mataelpino ,for example there is a choice :chocolates and potato chips ,until tomorrow morning breakfast ,or walking back down the hill we have just staggered up in the increasing rain and sleet ,to the only place that is open now ,the bar at the railway station .Inside the bare place the rooms are  warm and beds clean ,but no food .We have run out of our own supplies .How hungry am I??

Obviously hungry enough to brave the dark cold night .Off we went down the hill to the only other place open tonight

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Our room at the youth Hostel -cold outside ,warm but a different cold inside 
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Back up  that hill after food and a few vinos -its fun now in the dark and cold    Just as well we made the trip as in  the morning there is an unappetising breakfast served in a cold canteen ,cardboard cereal of some kind ,dull bread ,and a most unspanish like coffee tasting like dishwater Standard fare in the Albergues del Juveniles ,Spanish youth hostels ,which are clean and well run .We made a poor choice could have paid more and gone to  the private hostal near the station .And not had to do  the 2 km walk twice up the steep hill at the end of a  full days walking 

Its important to carry enough food ,for times like this .But there is always the balance with weight .Always water ,but sometimes have been caught out on this trip with no food Later on in a little place called Ane there was nothing open at all ,not even a shop in the town ,or remains of a settlement really.See my entry in diary :

We went through one tiny collection of houses ,most falling apart, and what must have been a thriving and beautiful church rising out of  the circle of abandoned homes .The usual cats prowling around ,a couple of dogs .Noone at all around ,unusual .Even here in Ane ,also a tiny place ,there are a few old men walking in the afternoon ,a large flock of sheep near the furthest inhabited house/farm and one child playing by the very new swing in the playground with his grandparents .”

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Approaching Ane ,the sun came out 
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Cats coming from everywhere -and a wintery sun is out

.A long walk ,a hard day ,one of us ill and only 2 teabags and panadol in the first aid kit .A lovely old man eventually found the keys and  opened up the hostal. There were lots of blankets to throw on a fairly clean beds in a smaller room ,and a kettle to boil .Not the season for walking this route ,which is a fairly solitary one anyway ,

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Ane Hostal ,thank you for the bed and warm blankets ,and thank you lovely old man for finding the keys .Everything is fine this morning ,and the sun is out .Lets go caminoing on 

On the other hand ,having to go out for food often leads to some interesting evenings in small villages ,the Spanish  bars are social centres and people love to talk .The food is usually great ,washed down with the local vino .Some great meals .One memorable meal in a village further on from Ane was the pigs trotters.I hasten to add it was eaten with relish by my food adventurer English cousin ,and I looked away and ate my calamares and salad.This was in Nave de Ascunsion ,

On the second night in that  same bar next to the bus station ,the barman handed us a bottle of the local wine as we left .Clare carried that bottle in her pack for 2 days .

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This wine was worth waiting  to drink .Thanks Clare for the carrying and gratias  Señor barman in Nave for your friendliness and sense of humour 

Returning Home – thoughts on Rocky Bay path

Me Me Me ,and the sun is out

The last published post with the wonderful selfie complete with walking gear,seems a world away.It seemed many worlds away this morning ,my first day back and my first run along that same path I walked about a month ago.
I have decided to write from the prewalk to the post walk ,and then thread my writing back to walking the Madrid Camino.There are so many great bioggs about the many Spanish caminos ,so I am going to focus on particular events, places ,spaces ,experiences during my last walk along the Camino de Madrid with my daughter

To be honest these thoughts are thoughts about thoughts ,written a few weeks after that first home run post Spain and added to as the weeks go by .I want to capture the initial feelings of return ,or at least some of them .I also want to use intentness of those who go for long walks – really seeing  surroundings .
Here I am walk/running along the cliff.River on my left, houses on the left, all with views of the water .Sun shining.Blue sky.
Yet I feel a heaviness that is not just to do with the fact that I haven’t run for a while .I feel like I am moving through a painting that is almost perfect ,with the sky ,the river ,the occasional boats ,and the grand houses on my right Its the silence.The silence and the absence of people .Yes they walk by with dogs or on bikes or walking.Most nod or say Hello .But there is still a silence .Houses are boarded by fences or hedges, well tended lawns ,roses fronting the path .But there are no people there ,and there is no-one visible in the homes.All is clean and contained .

Written April and May 2018

PS ROCKY BAY is an important part of the coastline stretching along the Swan River .It is situated in North Fremantle ,Western Australia .The home of the Waugul serpent and a favourite swimming place for locals .Many a young person has jumped off the high limestone cliff on the top of the bay into the clear waters .From a place suiy( suicide) ,but that s another story 

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Pueblo sin Bar

I walked through pueblo de Sanabria
Hauling my backpack and water
Hoping so much
I’d meet with some luck
El Bar with cafe con leche

Trudged on through mountains and plains
Cursing the pebbles and sand
Hoping that soon
I’d find with some prayers
El Bar with cafe con leche

Its a long walk through campos preciosos
Up mountains then down ,sharp stones underfoot
I’ve run out of luck
No bars with cafe con leche

I’ve walked through valleys,up mountains
Through pueblos as silent as death
The grey morning light
Gives way to the sun
And still no cafe con leche

Cathedrals,iglesias,campos and calles
Pueblos pequeños y largos
Albergues,peregrinos
Caminos y carreteras

All part of this bloody Camino

Preciosa, stupendo, duro y feo
I just want cafe con leche
Fantastico,stupendo,muy legos,dont care
Just want cafe con leche

(Photos from the via de la plata ,walked in 2015)

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I’m trying to repost an edited version of El Pueblo sin Bar , written after one of those not so good days of walking : hot, water running out, legs aching and hopes dashed each time one passes another small place with no coffee . There’s the anticipation and lifting of spirits , and the fall is harder each time . Such a small thing . But small things assume big proportions on a long walking day ,long walking weeks .

On the cold way from Colemar Viego continued -some photos

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Me -cold and wearing all the warm things i had .The start of the  path from Colemar 
At the beginning from colemnar,and the path is uncertain ,just a track and the arrows on the rocks at ground level .brambles,stones and mud underfoot .The clouds are coming closer
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Still beautiful ,and desolate .Are we walking towards colder weather ?
And still walking ,still cold ,but getting there we hope

O k -Por que estoy caminando .Why am I walking??

Day 1 23/3/2018 22.2 km

First day of the Camino Madrid -from train ride to Colemar de Viego to Manzaneras el Real.Cheating ,but it was a hard first day anyway .Walked from Petrus Albergue in outer Madrid ,to the metro and bought a ticket by Cercernaris to Colemar,
Not as clever as I thought as train dropped us off at station which initially seemed in the middle of nowhere ,and there was a 2 km uphill walk to find the arrows for the exit from the town .As usual there were several starts ,but eventually located the first arrow in front of the old church ,via a series of roadworks and potholes .A very pretty church ,was hauled in by the old man who was looking after it to sign our credentials ,plus a long monologue on the town and the pilgrims who have passed through,We were itching to get going now especially as the sky was looking increasingly grey ,the wind harsher and some threatening drops of what seemed like sleet or snow .But he was a kind and gentle old man who obviously spent most of his day in the old church waiting to tell visitors about this beautiful old church and its stories .He stamped our credentials ,or passeportes ,once again and we were off ,

After an hour walking the wind became increasingly cold and hard ,and the arrows increasingly elusive ,appearing in unexpected places .Probably it was getting used to the arrow chase again. Stumbling over rocks .no sense of where the path was heading .An old bridle path and sometimes Roman,Snow threatening now ,and hard walking against the wind

Why am I walking in 5-8 degrees in rain and cloud and an evil wind ?Why heading to a place I dont know ,to a bed (hopefully ) somewhere ,following yellow arrows which shift position or disappear? This camino seemed a good idea 2 weeks ago -always forget the weather inclemencies ,the uncertainties and the anxieties of walking .
Camino lovers would say that the camino throws up the problems one needs to confront.Do I go along with this ? I do believe that as one moves from the certainties and fabric of the everyday with its routines ,jobs, conflicts ,relationships,and are separated from anyone to blame ,there is only self left .Self with minimal baggage ,moving slowly on 2 legs ( or a bike or horse I guess)across a landscape which is at times beautiful but also quite stark ,sometimes quite ordinary ,often positively confronting .Stone walls and blackberry bushes ,mud, lean toos ,cows placidy grazing ,dogs guarding run down small holdings ,men and women working land .
The thing is I am not even sure of where I will end up tonight ,or where I will stay or even of the way itself.